So I am 30 days from P's first birthday. This means 30 more days of breastfeeding. 30 more days of pumping - lugging it to work, hiding out during lunch, clean parts at least 3 times a day, and wearing that sexy hands free bra!
I feel like I should be sad but I am so excited. I ave a countdown app for her birthday but every time I open it, I think about not BF anymore. I have truly enjoyed BF. I feel very connected with P. I know that I am providing her with the most nutritionally sound diet out there but it has been hard. We went milk and soy free in early June. For the record, soy is in EVERYTHING! I got back soy just after Thanksgiving. We have been lucky to get back milk last week too.
AF joined the party in December, which screwed with my supply. It hasn't been the same since. Luckily, I have been able to stay ahead of her and still have a freezer stash that will take us well sat a year, but it's hard.
I am for whatever you want to do with your kid, so long as you live and feed them. BF was very important to me but I am ready to be done. Should I feel guilty that I am ready to finish? I don't think I should but I do!
I'm 100% with you...I'm sooo over it! I want to regain ownership of my body after so long struggling with SIF, pregnancy and BF. Don't feel bad. You'll be a tiny bit sad when it's over, but mostly...you'll feel relieved. I'm ready!
ReplyDeleteOh, I was SO excited to be done!
ReplyDeleteI too was SO excited to be done! Rationally, I knew that I was doing a good thing for my sons but it was super hard and I was ready to move on. With my older son, I cut out wheat, soy, eggs,dairy plus I'm allergic to peanuts and treenuts amongst other things so I was often famished!
ReplyDeleteNo, I do think you should feel guilty at all! You have done a great job, and if you are ready (and apparently your body is ready, if your supply is dropping), then it's time! Great job for making it this far and good luck!
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